Bring on 2016

welcome 2016

So here we are, 2016.

2015 was filled with a lot of ups and a few downs, but I can say, 2015 was a blessed year.

My husband finally got a job in his desired field – an hour away.  But 6 months later, got an even better opportunity in his desired field, 15 minutes from home!  Praise break!

I however, lost my job.  It hurt – a lot- because it was not handled in the manner that someone who gave their entire adult life to an organization should have been handled.  (Not gonna lie, the worse part was none of my friends reached out after, either)  However, I had been in prayer and was seeking guidance to step down from that position anyway to be home more with my son (since you know, more than half my income went to child care anyway).  So, clearly, God was tired of my lack of action and allowed for that door to be closed.

But I’ve started new ventures, and returned to old.

When little Liam will sleep, I spend time crafting and cooking, leading to the creation of Arts & Glass by Cindy, as well as becoming an independent demonstrator for Uppercase Living. It’s fun!Arts & Glass

I also am doing some freelance marketing work, busting out the old Sociably Cindy name tag and business card was fun.  I think it’s time for a re-design, though.

I’m looking forward to writing more, being more involved in my community and church.  Oh, and the JBQ season is about to start – 2 kids in juniors, 1 in beginners, it’s going to be crazy!
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And P.O.T.S. Returns

December 2013

Had a bit of energy this week… I decided to try to make dinner myself.

BIG MISTAKE!

While attempting to put a pot of taco meat on the table to make tacos for the kids, the room started spinning.  I had enough time to get the pot on the table and get into the living room before things went dark.

I don’t know how long I was out, only a few minutes I think.  But I stayed on the floor for a while, with my feet up.  Suddenly baby was moving frantically.  I was so scared.  Thankfully my nurse was on her way.  My blood pressure was 85/55, heartbeat slightly irregular.  Definitely a NCS/POTS episode.  I hadn’t had one in months, and this was the worst.  I had to take antibiotics when I got the blood clot a few weeks ago, and from what friends and doctors told me, antibiotics can mess up the system, even weeks later… yay.

Kate told me to take it easy for the next day or so, since I’d be seeing the doctor that week.  She gave me my 3rd shot – she was right, one hip hurts more than the other!

At my appointment, I was informed that I’d probably have to go back on the IV.  Probably not long-term, not yet at least.  But enough to get me rehydrated.

I’d gained 1 pound at my appointment, a good sign.  But liquids are still a big issue, and I’m still getting sick daily.  With Thanksgiving this week, I really just want to rest and enjoy time with my family… maybe some time at Mom & Dad’s will get me back on my feet.

Surviving my first year with P.O.T.S.

December  2013

Surviving my first year with P.O.T.S.

My New Year’s resolution for 2013 was to eat healthier and run a 5k.    Who would’ve thought cutting out french fries and soda would darn near kill me….

I’d been diagnosed with NCS after the birth of my daughter Samantha in 2005.  I’d been exhibiting symptoms for YEARS, but because they came and went, and seemed ‘unrealistic’ to my childhood pediatrician, it was untreated.

I’d spent a few years taking Toporol and a variety of Beta Blockers, all of which were absolutely awful, and actually caused some pretty severe anxiety issues.  One morning I woke up and decided that I wasn’t going to allow the headaches and dizzy spells control my life, and I threw my pills away, in Jesus Name!

I’d been symptom free for about 3 years, a few bad days here and there, but nothing like it had been.  Then Pastor called for a church-wide Daniel Fast, and I thought it was a perfect time for me to cut my yucky soda habit.

And no, I’m not exaggerating when I say it almost killed me – started having my first ‘episode’ (considered by my neurologist to be seizures) while driving.  Not good, but I was able to pull over before things really got dark. 

I didn’t really realize what was going on.  I did a 48 hour detox water drink (water, cucumbers, lemon and mint), to help cleanse out the chemicals in my body.  It was supposed to last a week, but I couldn’t handle more than 2 days.

I switched to just water, no juice and NO SODA and still felt really dehydrated, like I was voiding more than I was taking in, when I knew I was drinking at least 70 oz each day.  Then other weird symptoms started to develop.  My word would slur, or I’d use the wrong word completely.  I’d lose focus, and would be extremely exhausted.  All this within a 1 week period.  I went to my doctor (who was a new doctor, fresh out of med school), who was testing me for diabetes, everything came back normal.

So I went to Facebook to lament.  I’m thankful I did, because a few high school classmates of mine had also recently experienced similar symptoms and had been given a diagnosis of POTS.  So I looked it up.  Sure enough, everything I’d been experiencing was right there.  So I printed out the information I found and brought it to my next appointment.  She’d heard of POTS, but was told in one lecture that covered it, that she’d likely never see a case.

As it happens, she’d had a patient come in earlier that day who also had already been diagnosed with POTS, and was picking her brain about her condition because her case reminded me a lot like mine.  My doctor told me that the brain fog and word jumbles were this other patients biggest hurdle, as she was a university professor.

The more research I did, the more people I spoke with, I realized that this was going to be another fun battle.  I needed to maintain my BP or the seizure would start again (Gotta love when the Doctor tells you to add salt and caffeine to your diet) and I needed to keep my stress levels low (Did I mention I have 3 kids?).

We tried some meds but I hated them.  The Beta blockers gave me anxieties again, and the BP meds made me exhausted.  I phased them out and trusted in Healing, because medications were not the answer.  I adjusted my diet, added salt (I honestly don’t use salt in my cooking) and enjoyed my tea and soda.  I also forced myself to drink more sports drinks (the zero calorie ones, which are gross, in my honest opinion).

I still have bad days, and I’ve learned from others with POTS and from experience what triggers can be such as antibiotics and dehydration.  I may have to deal with this condition from time to time, but I’m not going to ever let it control me.

Penny Pinching

I didn’t have any real “New Years Resolutions” this year.  Something always happens and I fail.

Especially now with as sick as I’ve been, I’m not going to try anything too crazy.  I’d say “get healthier,” but my doctor doesn’t care what I eat or drink at this point, as long as I can keep it down.

With the birth of our 4th child coming however, I really want to try to be more frugal this year.

I coupon occasionally, when it’s products that we’d regularly use.  I don’t do the ‘extreme coupon-ing’ for major stocking up; I don’t buy 12 newspapers and the thought of ordering coupons by mail is weird to be, but some people swear by it.   But I love reading coupons blogs to see what kind of deals I can get, if I could manage to get my hand on THAT many coupons…

Me and the Coupon Queen herself, Joni Meyer-Crothers

at her book signing (FreeTastesGood.com)

I’ve started researching to make my own cleaning and beauty supplies… some other DIY things to save money.  

We thought about cloth diapers for the baby, but not sure how the childcare situation will be yet long-term, and not everyone is a fan of cloth diapers.

I’m taking the pants that my daughters, which they had received from my cousins, and have grown to tall for (thank you elastic adjusted waistbands!) and turning them into skirts.  I don’t have a wide variety of Maternity clothes, but I’ve found patterns to make my own… the catch is finding the energy to do it…

I know many moms who have started their own side businesses – crafts, skin care, etc.  But I’m not that crafty and you have to spend money and make a ton of products in hoping to sell a few.

I’ve tried to sit through those survey sites, too, but I never seem to qualify, so it’s almost a waste of my time…

I have a Sam’s Club Membership, I’d like to start doing more bulk meal preparations, but again, a lot of it has to do with time and energy…

So at this point, I’m just trying to cut as many corners as I can, trying to set money aside for things like Bible Quiz trips, and maternity leave.

What money-saving tips are you using?  Any suggestions for me?

First Published 1/3/14

Body Images

Being a woman is tough… it’s absolutely awful at times.

Women can be mean and judgmental… don’t deny it, we try not to be, but we all make at least one mean comment in our lives.

There aren’t many women who portray themselves as the positive role model that I’d want for my daughters.  So that’s who I’ve got to become.  But who do I look up to?

So many women look to Hollywood as to what they should be like.  Hollywood is a lie.  When I read this recent article about Jennifer Lawrence and airbrushing, I was sick to my stomach.  She’s gorgeous, and even with the makeup on, they still felt the need to paint her face more and make her look skinnier.  It made me sad, and yet I was glad to know she didn’t appreciate it either.

I’m the first to admit that I’m fairly plain… I hate make-up, but use it for “special occasions.”  I had a hormone imbalance that caused acne in my adulthood that no product would remedy.  I don’t have the money to get my hair done every other month, and my mousey brown hair is dull.  I have health issues preventing me from being as athletic as I use to be; I’ll never have the skinny chicken legs I’d always wished I had. I’ve got stretch marks and hips from carrying 3, now 4, babies.

And you know what, I’m OK with that.  Will I be parading around in a 2-piece bathing suit?  No.  I’m too modest for that, my body is mine and it’s private.  I’m not going to be ashamed of the body and face that I have, but I’m going to take care of it.  Will I go on crazy diets to be a size 2?  Probably not.  But I’ll eat right, drink my protein shakes and take my kids for walks and on bike rides.

While I do all these things, to show my girls who a real woman is, I can’t be the only one.  I want their teachers, their baby sitters, their friends’ moms, and their friends, to also be confident in themselves.  While I show them daily who I am in my, my husband’s, and in God’s eyes, I pray that the other women in their lives will also look away from what ‘popular culture’ is telling them is appropriate, and look to God for what is right.

We are made in His image, and we should take care of the body we’ve been given, but we shouldn’t be looking to gross exaggerations of what some Hollywood photographer thinks a beautiful woman is.

Me, all dolled up

Me, on a normal day

First Published 12/20/13

Wearing Many Hats

  • Wife
  • Mother
  • Daughter
  • Sister
  • Friend
  • Maid
  • Chef
  • Dry Cleaner
  • Nurse
  • chauffeur
  • Teacher
  • Student
  • Entrepreneur

 

This is probably an incomplete/generic list, but I’m exhausted just looking at it.

One of the hardest things that I have to deal with during any given day is managing my time.  I’ve been falling asleep at 9:45 every night – partially from my meds and being ill, partially because it’s non stop all day.

Most days, I wake up at 6:30, get my kids up and ready for school and out by 8.  Then I’m out of the house:  Meetings, networking, research, writing… Then the kids get home at 3 and then I’m helping with homework, reading, cooking, kid’s baths, bed.  Then I reply to a few emails, a little bit more research and writing then I crash.

I think the thing about being a working mother is even though we all know we need to take time for ourselves, we don’t.  I don’t make time for me, or get together with friends like I use to.  I don’t read for enjoyment, only for education.  I don’t go to the spa any more, I’m back to my natural color and will probably keep it that way for a very long time.

It’s funny; in business I need an accountability partner to help me make sure I’m staying on track.  Perhaps I need someone to help me to do the same for myself personally.  I don’t get it from my husband as often as I use to, I barely see him any more (work, school, work, sleep… poor guy, he needs some alone time too).

Well, perhaps now that it is written, it will be.  Probably not.  All I can say is – do as I say not as I do, and take some time for you – your business and family need you, and you can’t function without focusing on you every once in a while.

 

 November 14, 2011